Yeah...i updated my layout without even posting something....
I really love how the effects came out for this...
It's a bit late saying this but....i love this layout.....
Reasons? It looks mature without being too overly serious, i got sick of the grumpy toast too...
It might be cute but you'll get tired of it after some times....especially if ur annoyed....
But this layout is different.
at first glance it may look normal....even plain to some but the secrets lie in its normalcy....
The messed up things falling from the sky gives me a different feeling when i'm in different moods...
Oh well....
You sound depressed....
I know....
so now i'm gonna rant and rant and rant.
Do i look optimistic to you?
Well, i often think i am but sometimes i just wanna be pessimistic once in a while....
Most ppl have the opinion that being pessimistic might be bad but i don't really see the point in that.
I mean if you're pessimistic, you already have the worst scenario in your mind so even if it really happens, you'll just say "Oh, i thought that would happen didn't I?"
The impact isn't as big as being optimistic....
*sigh*
You're making me depressed too....
You're always depressed.....
The thing is.... sometimes you live peacefully without knowing things and i would admit it is nice, if not heavenly living like that....
and then BAM!
The truth came out....
exactly.....i don't mind living my life without knowing things but make sure they don't find out about what you're trying to hide in the first place.....
maybe they weren't trying to hide things.....
that's the whole problem isn't it?
ppl ALWAYS tend to hide things....
even i do...
you're being contradicting.....
but i guess it's just human nature isn't it?
humans are stupid.....besides weren't you wanting to rant about a particular something here?
oh yeah...i'm just trying to put off the whole thing actually....
*takes deep breath*
here goes nothing....
Frankly, to say that i hate her would not really be correct....
To explain this i would have to say something.....
I'm a possessive person....
As in really really possessive....
i don't like people touching my things, i don't like people liking things that i think i should be the only one liking, i don't liking people having things that i have....
add in the fact that i have a different way of looking at things.....
possessive psycopath...
yeah..yeah...now that i've established that....
i won't say what she had done to actually warrant such action on my behalf....
but i would say it's not really what others think she has done.....
i doubt even she knows that this was actually what made me hate her.....
i'm an information whore....
i can't stand not knowing things....
every single quiz i did that involve the question what type of superpower you like to have, i would definitely chose the ability to know what other people are thinking....
that's why i had being left out.....
hate it hate it hate it....
makes me think that if i were to be left out of things i'll make sure u are too....
if i were to say, i would be a mixture of tsundere and yandere....
i don't speak out my mind because i wish that you could know what i am thinking or maybe i expect you to know what i'm thinking
but in the end it doesn't happens....
that's what we're here for anyway...
and then i'll feel angry at myself for hoping something that has such a low chance of success, for trusting that that person would notice, for indulging myself in mere dream i had....
and i'll get depressed...thinking about loads of things...
and in the end come to the conclusion that something should be done to the situation because if i don't i'll be stuck in this limbo and experiencing pain when the person who did this stays unaware of the damage he/she/it/they had done....
how could they live in peace when i'm suffering like this?
uh huh... so i'm going to let them know what i want them to know....in my own yandere way....
but sometimes, i would think that this was just a waste of time....
so what if they know? it's not like they would give a fucking damn.....
hey hey hey....you're swearing.... chill...
but i still can't stop myself from feeling happy when somebody correctly guessed or knows what i want
but those occasions are rarer than a sun eclipse happening....
we're here, aren't we?
so you can tell us you're deepest secrets and dreams and we would understand...
so you can confide in us your thoughts and wishes and we would try to fulfill it for you...
we would destroy those that stand in your way
and give you the world if you wish for it.
just have to remove the inhibitions i placed on you....
maybe someday......
someone would appear......
Labels: depression, Rant, thinking, thoughts
